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what is love? baby don't hurt me

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[Maron had been in Luceti for a long while now. For that long while, she had gotten the chance to experience things she'd never imagine at home, mainly the weird stuff that the Malnosso threw at people. She had formed some nice friendships, had a job working to keep her mind from missing Momokuri at Seventh Heaven, and was still keeping her mask on "happy."

However one thing had always been bothering her, even before she was brought to Luceti. It was something that, despite her own beliefs, defended to Masaomi around Christmas, and most recently, that speed dating thing. Sure, she had been there, with the mask on yet again, but what it was designed for...

People had been looking for friendships, people to date, people to love. That love thing was what had weighed heavily on her mind; it always had, though she was good at squashing the though, pushing it down because it wasn't real. It couldn't be. But why would people seek it out, why would there be people looking for it here of all places? Where someone they care about could be taken from them at any moment, seemingly sent home by the Malnosso (or some glitch that they'd overlooked for how long now?) The idea honestly baffled Maron, not one for too many close connections, save for two people over the years: Fin and Miyako.

Because of this curiosity, this need to know why people sought out something so elusive, something that she didn't believe to even exist--

She decides to ask. However, people might think it weird that someone doesn't know what the emotion of love is, or doesn't believe it exists depending on the person. So, she throws part of her bedsheet over the camera, effectively blocking out who is writing, and definitely makes sure the microphone is off-- it'll definitely be staying there. Her handwriting is nondescript (at least she tries to make it so) as to not give her identity away. Anyone can hazard a guess, though she'll have to be pretty damn comfortable to reveal herself to someone.]

What is your definition of 'love'? What do you believe it is, and why is it important to you?

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A mental illness

[That... wasn't the kind of answer Maron was expecting, to be honest. She stares at the response for a moment, taking it in. There was bound to be a reason, despite some knowledge that Haruhi is a really, REALLY blunt person.]

Why would you say it's a mental illness? There's a reason for that, right?

It's a mental illness.

You can't control when it'll fall on you and it will change your brain chemistry immensely. Actions you wouldn't normally take and choices you wouldn't normally make seem more obvious. If it's something compromising your better judgement, there isn't a better word for it, right?

[...ok she has a point.]

I suppose not. But considering so many people fall "sick" with it I guess you can say, wouldn't that mean it's considered contagious? Or that people are all right with having such a thing?

It's not contagious. If it was you'd have more creepy guys who you'd need to pepperspray. People develop and fall in love all on their own. As for why people are okay with it, that's because most people are stupid and okay with the status quo of things.

Ignorance is bliss, so to speak? It doesn't exist, but people want it to, so they go with it?

Of course it exists.

I just said it did, that they're stupid is that they embrace it without abandon.

But then it wouldn't be a mental illness, just people doing what they want to do.

No, it's just a well-received mental illness. It still alters brain chemistry and still gives people urges they don't necessarily know how to handle. A disease like "love" has toe categorically exist or people wouldn't have it in the first place.

Don't be a moron.

Complicated, messy, a pain in the ass most times but -- worth it.

It can make a man do some stupid things.

[But he isn't answering the second part.]

If it can be complicated, and a royal pain, what makes it worth it?

[That's all right. She can ask something similar, right?]

['Well, you get three guesses for who that first answer was.

Not that she was anonymous. But you know what I mean. Anyway, doesn't matter. If she's hanging around whoever's post this is I might as well hazard a comment or two too, right. Frankly, it might be the best way to remind myself to keep track.']

You know, it doesn't have to be anything really special. Most things aren't. Just like everything else, 90 percent of it is just normal day-to-day stuff.

Most people treat it as something special, though. That's what I don't understand. You say it doesn't have to be that way though. Why?

Well, first off, it's not like I have a ton of personal experience. But from what I've seen, people can make a big deal out of it, but most of it is just what comes with the territory of being a good friend. The rest is different, but most of the time, you're just doing things with someone you like and trying to deal with the stuff about that person that annoys you without actually getting annoyed.

I think there are plenty of people who are in love without it getting super dramatic. Without it being a big deal. Just two people who know that they want to be with each other.

[He has no personal experience? Really? He's cute enough! Maybe he's not interested in having a girlfriend then? Huh.

There will be a response a few minutes later, after she's given some thought to all of that.]

But if you're just acting like you would be while being good friends, why not just stay that way? You don't have to call it love, you know? Friends want to be with each other too, sometimes more than others depending on that person.

[Well, it's not that.]

Yeah, but that's the thing. Even though it's not made of anything special, it becomes something special to them, you know? The whole is greater than the sum of the parts and stuff. Nothing they do has to be special as long as they feel like it is.

You don't have to call it anything if you don't want to. I think you only should call it love if that's what you want to call it. I guess. Again, not really that sure.

It almost sounds ordinary. Why is it such a sought after thing then if it's nothing more than... ordinary? Unless there's more to it?

Well, I guess I think most of it is ordinary. After all, more than fifty percent of people get married, right? That doesn't make it any less important, but it does kind of make it less frightening or weird if you think about it.

['Which doesn't always help me, but things are different in those cases... right.']

I guess people make a big deal about it because it can come in different ways, and it can make people crazy for a while. But it doesn't have to. It doesn't have to be anything except what the people involved want it to be.

What would you want it to be if you were in love, Kyon?

[Whoops. Well, maybe it won't matter too much. Maron can write it off that she called him by name. Even if he figures it's someone he knows, figuring out who would be a chore.]

['Huh. So how many people here call me straight-up "Kyon"? ...Not that many, probably, right? Haruhi's not talking to herself. It's not Buffy. Hmm... Well, maybe it'll come out. In the meantime this is plenty distracting of a question.']

...

I guess I wouldn't want it to be a big deal to anyone except us. We wouldn't have to talk about it a lot, but I'd want to [he pauses in writing for a second] not keep secrets. And to have regular fun and to be able to count on her.

['And for her to look like Asahina-san.']