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Kusakabe Maron ([personal profile] windofgod) wrote2013-07-30 12:19 am

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[Maron had been in Luceti for a long while now. For that long while, she had gotten the chance to experience things she'd never imagine at home, mainly the weird stuff that the Malnosso threw at people. She had formed some nice friendships, had a job working to keep her mind from missing Momokuri at Seventh Heaven, and was still keeping her mask on "happy."

However one thing had always been bothering her, even before she was brought to Luceti. It was something that, despite her own beliefs, defended to Masaomi around Christmas, and most recently, that speed dating thing. Sure, she had been there, with the mask on yet again, but what it was designed for...

People had been looking for friendships, people to date, people to love. That love thing was what had weighed heavily on her mind; it always had, though she was good at squashing the though, pushing it down because it wasn't real. It couldn't be. But why would people seek it out, why would there be people looking for it here of all places? Where someone they care about could be taken from them at any moment, seemingly sent home by the Malnosso (or some glitch that they'd overlooked for how long now?) The idea honestly baffled Maron, not one for too many close connections, save for two people over the years: Fin and Miyako.

Because of this curiosity, this need to know why people sought out something so elusive, something that she didn't believe to even exist--

She decides to ask. However, people might think it weird that someone doesn't know what the emotion of love is, or doesn't believe it exists depending on the person. So, she throws part of her bedsheet over the camera, effectively blocking out who is writing, and definitely makes sure the microphone is off-- it'll definitely be staying there. Her handwriting is nondescript (at least she tries to make it so) as to not give her identity away. Anyone can hazard a guess, though she'll have to be pretty damn comfortable to reveal herself to someone.]


What is your definition of 'love'? What do you believe it is, and why is it important to you?
menial: (& annoying...)

[personal profile] menial 2013-08-06 02:03 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah, but there are also people who stay together forever. Just because some people do it wrong doesn't mean the whole thing doesn't exist. It's not so much a thing as a process, right? A process and a struggle that you have to try your best at each day, but some people think it's worth it, and it's really up to them if they do.

I have to say, you seem to have some pretty strong feelings on this for something you've never experienced. Actually, I feel like less people here talk about love than elsewhere I've seen. But either way, if you really don't want it, I don't think anyone will blame you.
menial: (& too much...)

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[personal profile] menial 2013-08-07 12:59 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah? How much exactly is "a lot", then?
menial: (& nothing much at all)

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[personal profile] menial 2013-08-07 02:42 am (UTC)(link)
Sounds like it's not that much different from what other people want from it. They're just not as clearsighted about it as you.

['I'm really starting to get a familiar vibe from Anony-chan here... Hmm...']

So what do you think? Know anyone who satisfies even one of those things?
menial: (well some good things)

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[personal profile] menial 2013-08-07 04:30 am (UTC)(link)
Hey, well, that's a pretty good start. Don't worry, I won't ask who. Is it really just one?

Also, by the way, did anyone else say anything useful?
Edited 2013-08-07 04:30 (UTC)
menial: (& uhh sure!)

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[personal profile] menial 2013-08-08 05:09 am (UTC)(link)
Well, good enough. The rest of it isn't my business.

I'm plenty familiar with the mental illness theory. It's got something to it, that's for sure. As for sacrifice, maybe that too, but it's that kind of thing I was thinking of when I said people sometimes take it more seriously than it has to be. Not that it can't be that, but it doesn't have to be. Probably.

Anyway, sounds like you got a few different answers at least.
menial: (& nothing much at all)

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[personal profile] menial 2013-08-10 12:15 am (UTC)(link)
Well, if I were curious, since you're a stranger, it wouldn't even matter if I did know, right?

['Yeah, right.']

I don't agree with the mental illness view, but she has a point. When it's in its initial form, if it's really strong, it changes the way you think about things. One doesn't think about other things. A fixation's a form of mental illness. But just saying that's what it is doesn't really help anyone decide how to go about it, right?

As for sacrifice, it's not so much that you have to as that you become willing to, right? You become willing to give up things that you thought before that you cared about. If they make your world weirder, and you liked things normal, you stop liking them normal and you start liking them weirder. That's how I'd interpret that, anyway.
menial: (& uhh sure!)

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[personal profile] menial 2013-08-12 02:57 pm (UTC)(link)
['...Well, now I guess I really have to hope it's an Anony-chan. I guess it's a compliment either way, but I can't help having a sudden Koizumi flashback. Undesirable.

I guess that means we're friends. However, she also doesn't trust me? The stark truth is always easier anonymously. Then again, "don't trust" doesn't have to mean "distrust." If trust is hard, that makes sense.'
]


Well, thanks, I guess.

Anyway, you don't want to have most mental illnesses, right? But it might happen either way. As far as I know, that's the point. Or part of the point. Same thing with giving things up. Doing one thing always means giving up on another... but nothing's necessarily true about it except having another person, right?

...Like I said, I guess I don't really know any more than you. If it's anything like other big things, talking about it isn't anything like actually doing it.
menial: (your face is too close)

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[personal profile] menial 2013-08-24 03:34 pm (UTC)(link)
['...Right, I guess I'll make a mild guess here.']

Well, if you want to talk about that, you'd better come up and talk about it, since I'm not sure it's fit for public messaging with Anony-chan.
menial: (& you don't say)

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[personal profile] menial 2013-08-25 02:02 am (UTC)(link)
['Ha! I feel like a real detective. Words that would have meant nothing particular to anyone except her... well, probably.

I'll still hedge a little.'
]


Come upstairs and talk. I don't mind.
menial: (& nothing much at all)

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[personal profile] menial 2013-08-25 03:25 am (UTC)(link)
['Could I have been wrong?

...Maybe. I mean, it wouldn't be anything new. But on the other hand, there's that hesitation. And that handwriting. No, I definitely hit on something.'
]


I see. Well, I guess we could keep it here, if you know how to make a halfway-decent filter.
menial: (& do you do that often?)

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[personal profile] menial 2013-08-25 04:14 am (UTC)(link)
[After the no reply, he flips through the journal a bit more. He's busy stalking another conversation by the time she (finally) knocks on the door.

It takes him a second to realize what it is, as unusual as it is to have visitors, or at least ones he doesn't see coming. Then he figures who it must be. He gets up and opens the door.

...And doesn't see anyone. Huh.

He waits a second or two.]


Uh... Anyone there?

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