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[Maron had been in Luceti for a long while now. For that long while, she had gotten the chance to experience things she'd never imagine at home, mainly the weird stuff that the Malnosso threw at people. She had formed some nice friendships, had a job working to keep her mind from missing Momokuri at Seventh Heaven, and was still keeping her mask on "happy."
However one thing had always been bothering her, even before she was brought to Luceti. It was something that, despite her own beliefs, defended to Masaomi around Christmas, and most recently, that speed dating thing. Sure, she had been there, with the mask on yet again, but what it was designed for...
People had been looking for friendships, people to date, people to love. That love thing was what had weighed heavily on her mind; it always had, though she was good at squashing the though, pushing it down because it wasn't real. It couldn't be. But why would people seek it out, why would there be people looking for it here of all places? Where someone they care about could be taken from them at any moment, seemingly sent home by the Malnosso (or some glitch that they'd overlooked for how long now?) The idea honestly baffled Maron, not one for too many close connections, save for two people over the years: Fin and Miyako.
Because of this curiosity, this need to know why people sought out something so elusive, something that she didn't believe to even exist--
She decides to ask. However, people might think it weird that someone doesn't know what the emotion of love is, or doesn't believe it exists depending on the person. So, she throws part of her bedsheet over the camera, effectively blocking out who is writing, and definitely makes sure the microphone is off-- it'll definitely be staying there. Her handwriting is nondescript (at least she tries to make it so) as to not give her identity away. Anyone can hazard a guess, though she'll have to be pretty damn comfortable to reveal herself to someone.]
What is your definition of 'love'? What do you believe it is, and why is it important to you?
However one thing had always been bothering her, even before she was brought to Luceti. It was something that, despite her own beliefs, defended to Masaomi around Christmas, and most recently, that speed dating thing. Sure, she had been there, with the mask on yet again, but what it was designed for...
People had been looking for friendships, people to date, people to love. That love thing was what had weighed heavily on her mind; it always had, though she was good at squashing the though, pushing it down because it wasn't real. It couldn't be. But why would people seek it out, why would there be people looking for it here of all places? Where someone they care about could be taken from them at any moment, seemingly sent home by the Malnosso (or some glitch that they'd overlooked for how long now?) The idea honestly baffled Maron, not one for too many close connections, save for two people over the years: Fin and Miyako.
Because of this curiosity, this need to know why people sought out something so elusive, something that she didn't believe to even exist--
She decides to ask. However, people might think it weird that someone doesn't know what the emotion of love is, or doesn't believe it exists depending on the person. So, she throws part of her bedsheet over the camera, effectively blocking out who is writing, and definitely makes sure the microphone is off-- it'll definitely be staying there. Her handwriting is nondescript (at least she tries to make it so) as to not give her identity away. Anyone can hazard a guess, though she'll have to be pretty damn comfortable to reveal herself to someone.]
What is your definition of 'love'? What do you believe it is, and why is it important to you?
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[So love is trouble-- oh, no, it was retracted.]
Well I can't promise I'd be able to help with any of that, but I'll listen. Guess it means you have some sort of trust in me to be talking to me about it?
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[And then the rest of it. Well, he's not sure exactly of what to say, but it's true he's more secure than at any other point in his life about this, and it's mostly driven by a crash-and-burn experience.]
Well, yeah. I trust you with my secret thief identity, right? This is a small matter as to that.
['Sigh. Not as comfortable as it seems, since my words are as limp as a ten-year-old tapeworm!']
Anyway, what I was going to say is that... Yeah. I'm not convinced I've ever been in love. Not in any way that I could say openly that there's someone that I can declare anything for. If there's any situation where it's been half-true, there's always been other obstacles in the way.
Does that make any sense?
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[Maron still gives it good thought though, before nodding slowly.]
It makes sense, I think. I don't think I've ever really known it though, so you're more knowledgable than I am on this whole thing even if you've never had the whole experience.
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So that's what I mean. I guess it's not love if it's not something you can actually pursue, right? Or maybe it is, but it really doesn't matter if you can't do anything about it.
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I... guess not though, I mean there's liking someone because you think they're attractive [...uuurgh, awkward. There's some cheek flush over that one] and... I guess if it's mutual it could turn into it or something. Like I said I don't really believe it can exist, but I've never really had anything to change my mind on the matter.
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...And I guess that's how it usually starts. Not every mutual attraction [He hesitates a little] gets off the ground that way, though. It's not a recipe or anything... There's always other things in the way, right? That's why it's something you can't really force on yourself until you feel like something's wrong without it... or something like that.
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[Miyako. Minazuki. Fin. People (and an angel) that she missed sorely. Sure, she had made friends here, but having a connection to her home through them here would make this place easier to deal with on some days.]
But there are a few people here that I could say it would be weird without them here, if I had to deal with that too.
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...I know for sure under that definition, there are people that fit for me. But if you talk about it the way people define it, well, it could end up being anything. I just know that as far as romantic goes, even if it's had some of the right ingredients, it's never anything I could've said was settled. It's complicated. Personal relationships are complicated. Who or what a person is to you can be a lot of things.
['What am I even saying? Am I just repeating myself?']
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I should already know about all of this. I'm eighteen now, I shouldn't need to ask others what love is. I'm making you repeat yourself because I can't understand it at all. I guess I'm not supposed to get it. Sorry, Kyon. For making you repeat everything you've already told me.
[There's a sigh that follows that; girls were supposed to be all about princesses and true love, weren't they? All figured out how their dream weddings would pan out, who their ideal guy was... all of that still seemed so... weird. So not-right to Maron. Eventually she'll glance up at Kyon.]
Do you have a pillow handy? I might need to smother myself with one.
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Well, maybe you just can't understand it at all because you've never focused on it or read manga about it or tried it yourself. You know? I figure most people pick up the obsession with it just because it's portrayed as the part of the victory condition in everything that people read. Maybe you just missed it. It's not a big deal if you did, though. Maybe there's nothing you're really missing out on after all. [He laughs a little awkwardly.] And if you do change your mind, you're cute enough that you'd be able to get whoever you want.
[He shrugs. Pauses for a second. Then fills the slightly awkward silence by tossing his pillow at her.]
But if you still want it, all yours.
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At least see how red her face is getting.]
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...Look, if you can do it, so can I.'
He rolls his eyes a little, out of a desire to keep things at least somewhat normal, or to pretend that it's all standard operating practice, anyway. After a minute or two, he adds:]
I think you have to press harder if you're going to smother yourself.
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Because that's what she's going to do after she peers at him over the top of the pillow, eyes slightly narrowed. That was pretty much a dare she's going to take him up on. Embarrassed or not, now she's just awkward.
But the question is, how much more awkward will it get?]action
I don't know what I was trying to get at though, to be honest! Don't I? This probably isn't a good moment to enter a huge phase of introspection, though. Well, let's not think about it! The fact is that... I can't tell what she's thinking. Maybe she just wishes I didn't say that. Probably... Ahem.']
R-Right, so how have you been lately anyway?
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Frustrated about that love stuff, maaaaybe a little over the fact that you figured it was probably me. But I guess that wasn't your fault. All right other than that. I've been working over at Seventh Heaven so I don't get too bored while I'm here. I do a lot over there, actually! [There's an actual smile that appears, as small as it might be. It's almost a hell of a lot more genuine than it normally would be.] It's a little like a part time job, so it's fun and some new territory for me. What about you?
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[ he laughs a little. ]
Seventh Heaven, huh? I haven't stopped by there in a while. Not as many people to go eat with recently, maybe? Or dinners. You know, the longer I stick around, the harder it is to feel like meeting New Feathers is a new thing. It's like it's always the same drill. But people keep disappearing, so...
[ He shrugs. ]
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[She's quiet for a moment.]
I could always continue teaching you how to do rhythmic gymnastics!
[SHE KIDS, but it was worth saying for his reaction.]
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[ he shrugs. ]
We're not really cheering anyone up by being glad to leave, huh? Well, maybe you and I should just get dinner more often.
actionaction; hi i've been on hiatus and this comment makes me ship these two. damn it Linton! o9"
...which quickly turned from just smiling to smiling and really red cheeks.]
Wait, what?